I got my 2nd concussion in as many weeks yesterday. I now have scrambled eggs for brains. It has all been really stupid reasons - on the freezer door and on a ruler. It stinks. I had to stay home from work today.
I am snoring so loud that I just woke myself up - this is ridiculous. I need this cold/sinus infection gonzo!
Sylvia Plath killed herself (partially) due to a sinus infection. I can see why. I want to drill a hole in my head to release this tension.
Sharon Stone was rushed to hospital during the Fendi show because of a migraine, which is just about the best way to get out of having to sit still for 20 minutes and watch fur-draped models walk up and down a catwalk. She recovered well enough to host the amfAR AIDS benefit that night.
Boooooo to having a bad cold + ladytime simultaneous with unavoidable, outside of the home commitments!
Complain, whine, bleurgh.
This visual representation of sugar in drinks is shocking AND TOTALLY WORKS at making it more “real”.
I have been tracking my food intake for the past few weeks {{trying to find migraine triggers}} and my sugar intake is the only place where I am not very successful at hitting my nutritional goals. I am not sure if there is a correlation between sugar & migraine - especially because I usually crave sugar via carbs or candy when I have the migraine pain and/or aura.
-Boring Health Post Out-
(Source: jasminemartigani)
// Looking for validation//
I woke up my normal time this morning but I headed back to bed at 9 am and didn’t wake up until about 12:30 pm. And now I am cruising the tumblr & my google reader feed. I feel as though I should be doing the laundry & tidying the house. But I am not… I need reassurance that this is okay.
I do believe this is what my doctor was referring to because if I was more like my husband I would be chilling after a long hard week - not stressing about cleaning.
Looks like I didn’t relay this funny doctor story. He told me last week that maybe my headaches wouldn’t be so bad if I was more like Jordan. Laid back, not wanting so much out of life… it is kind of outrageous. But I am feeling like that would require my personality to do a 180° and so I have been OBSESSIVELY - NOT LAID BACK - about figuring out if my Type A personality makes me ill.
ETA:: I always have these prolonged sleep days when I have trouble getting to sleep the night before and I take a gravol to help me sleep - chicken/egg — does the gravol make me hungover or am I sleepy because I couldn’t get to sleep the night before…
to-may-toe / toe-mah-toe
AUGUST is the cruelest month
// migraine//
i got these new abortive meds that worked all week to keep the migraine at bay — and it is just like “eff you” today and i am wholloped with migraine. i am so barfy that i just need to keep eating to keep the nausea at bay - isn’t that weird - eating keeps my nausea down - very strange - Symptoms today: 1. nausea 2. inability to concentrate 3. blurred vision 4. intense front of head pain 5. abortives and pain killers aren’t working 6. tired, over-emotional, weepy 7. mega-guilt-trip about not working today (which is a result of pain - not bc there is a work emergency) I am looking forward to this being over - will be sleeping and eating it off.
// Migraine: day 3//
Feeling super crappy - I cancelled my trip to Vancouver this week - which sucks because I was pretty stoked about getting away… sigh…
// Migraine//
Have a migraine today for the 1st time in ages - the weather is gruesome though. Making one with the couch.
I have had a mild migraine since last Tuesday - really tired and the migraine is flaring and going down and I know that it is weather based. And I am waiting for this to pass.
The thing is that I really need to eat less healthy when I have migraines - it is all about the carbs and the sugar - and I feel much better when that happens. It seems contrary to feel poorly and eat worse but man… I sure feel better.
We have our AGM at work this week - and I feel anxious and tired about it already - lots to do in advance of it… I am tired just thinking about it. We are doing some strategic planning at the event which will be interest - but I am still planning the activities….
Today will be a good day though and I will get lots done!
// Health Update//
I am at the 50 mg for topomax now and things have been going really well - my swiss cheese brain has been noticiably reduced HOWEVER I have a couple of bizarre reactions to topomax — crazy allergic reactions (CHECK!) pathological anxiety manifesting in my terrible tummy aches (CHECK!)
I have been feeling generally good - just got back from the work-ish vacation in Victoria where I attended the CUPE BC convention and saw Adrian Dix speak - he is no Obama but MAN ALIVE was it ever moving! I went out and bought public speaking reference books right after because I was brought to tears from that speech - the environment - everything. Breathtaking. (I wish I could find a link to the speech!)
Health-wise things are on the upswing - this inbetweener weather is terrible for migraines but I know that I will battle these forever. I took an old school abortive medicine tonight and that makes me loopy. Last time I took it I slept for 16 hours - I couldn’t even string together a sentence when I was in the midst of the medication — but I don’t have my “new” one and I just can’t struggle through a full throttle migraine right now. Hopefully this scrumptious choco bar I just ate will help. Thank you so much for being here for me tumblr.
// dopomax day 5//
Had a giant nap from about 12:45 to 3:15 pm today and even though it is only 7:40 pm I am about ready to hit the hay again.
- Bitch Mark Level: 5
- Energy level: less than normal - which is usually pretty damn low
- Pain level: 8/10
- Redness: 6/10 w. more blotchiness
- Heat: 4/10
- Puffiness: 6/10
// dopomax day 4//
Yesterday I had a nap in the afternoon and then slept all through the night so while my energy level is MUCH higher it isn’t manic (like it was the prior days). I am feeling the glum today - it is a gorgeous day out and I have the day off work, but I am just devoid of emotion. It is making the hubs crazy - nothing usually phases him but I think that the 1 word answers, the pjs until (oh wait - still on the couch now @ 12:46 pm) and the inability to make a decision about doing anything, is making him a bit bonkers. I am sorry that I am not sorry - it is often harder to be him than it is to be living - living with me must be a fucking nightmare. I would hate it. I am at least a void right now with no feelings - he still has to cope with me. So whether or not this is the topomax withdrawal or my general moodiness I am not sure - I will chalk it up to the medication because I am taking more pain killers - I feel as though I have been punched in the face - punched in the face a couple of days ago - so now it is all puffy and bruised - so I am medicating the pain - which makes me more of a bitch. I use that word it the un-gendered, adjective sense of the word, I am shorter tempered, more challenging, things bug me easier, including things like how loud the birds are singing (I.WISH.I.WERE.JOKING) -
- Bitch Mark Level: 8 *new factor
- Energy level: higher than normal
- Pain level: 7/10
- Redness: 4/10 w. more blotchiness
- Heat: 4/10
- Puffiness: 6/10 *new factor
More pain that usual due to the swelling and obviously from the topomax withdrawal. We can manage pain - this is okay - I am loving the more alert brain!
So happy that I found a mini solution to my non sleeping - I was having too much break through pain in the night so taking just a naproxen - over the counter - and I can sleep through the night. I am doing better.
hopes/wishes/prayers
